Sa Gitna ng Pagiisa

Sa likod ng mga luha
Nakatago ang tunay kong ndarama
Di mo man makita., di man marinig
Itong puso ko'y. ikaw padin ang pinipintig
Heto ako at nagiisa
Pilit nilalabanan., lungkot na nadarama
Habang nandito at umaasa
Na masabi mo ang mga salitang
"mahal din kita"
Pagod na ang puso ko
Sa pagsambit ng pangalan mo
Hindi mo rin namn naririnig
Kahit ano pa ang gawin ko
Dapat nga ba kitang layuan?
Iwan at kalimutan?
Alam kong mahirap ito
Ngunit dapat na kitang hayaan
Hindi ko na kaya pa
Pagod na ako sa pagluha
Dapat ko ng ihakbang papalayo
Itong aking mga paa..'
Alam kong mahirap..'
Alam kong masakit,,.'
Ngunit dapat kong tanggapin
Na di kita pagaari
Mahal kita
Ngunit mahal mo siya
Ano pang magagawa ko
Wala narin nmn diba?
Isang bagay n lamng
Ang gusto kong malaman mo
Ayoko na makitang
May luha sa mga mata moh
Hanggang dito na lamang siguro
Ang laban ng pag-ibig ko

~MaMORoE~

Letters From My Past

Lately this morning, I was fixing some things on my room. Then Ii accidentally saw my old note book. My old school notebook. Then I remember that it was the notebook that she used to borrow from me. I turn the pages until I reached the last leaf. As I turned at the last page
I saw the writings that you have made on it. You wrote my nickname MBON, you also write my full name twice. I also saw some erased writings on it. I knew you wrote that too. It was also my name if I'm not mistaken. My name with a sort of four letter word at the end that I can’t read clearly.

Then I stopped for a little while, for a tear to fell from my eyes and it landed on the pages of that notebook.
That writings really remind me of how good we used to be before. Of how you once cared for me. But now it’s all gone. I need to accept the fact that you’re only a memory now. A memory that brings joy and tears to my eyes.

After fixing my room, it took the notebook to our backyard. I burned it all the way through. Until it became ashes, ashes full of memories. How I wish that m feelings for you were also burned as the papers do. This time I need to fix things out. I need to heal this broken heart. The heart that used to love a girl that never loved him back..


~MaMORoE~

Hear Me Out

Loving someone means taking a great risk.
Coz you can’t be sure that they can give you back

The love you have shown on them.

Always remember these thoughts.

"Some people are not meant to be in your life
no matter how you want them to be"

I’d like tell you I love you.
But all I can do is stay and cry in silence.
Suddenly I started to realize that my heart is suffering from dumbness.
I’m losing all the strength to move on and to forget.
Because I know it would be better
if I'll just walk away without any single word.
This heart is really torn apart and I can’t fight this feeling.
I’m holding on to nothing.
I don’t want you to see,
how this stupid heart starts breaking into pieces.
Sorry if I had love you,
I know you won’t feel the same way too
now it’s time to move on
its time to step behind,
and leave all those empty spaces
let this feeling from me unwind.
But before I go, I want you to remember that,

"For every tear that falls from your eyes,

Two falls from mine"

~MaMORoE~

Goodbyes

I know right from the start that you don't like me.
But being pretty close to you is enough for me.

If you can’t be mine,
can you please stay even just for a while?
It doesn't mean that I'm smiling,
my heart is not crying.
Its not because you can see me fighting
inside me I'm not dying.
For loving you is like a seeking star,
it’s impossible to reach you coz your too far.
But if you really are for me,
I know that love will find a way, no matter how it will be .
It was so hard to think that you will never be mine.
But it’s more painful to realize
that I knew it right from the start.
If you would give me a chance,
I‘ll tell the whole world how much I love you.
While knowing how loud I shout.
It’s just a crazy thing for you.
Just like what others tell
"saying I love you is also saying goodbye"
Knowing how hard I try,

This pain will never ever die.

Is it time to let go? Is it time to say my goodbyes?

Or is it the time for me, to let you hear how my heart cry?

I’m not letting you see tears fall again.

I’m not gonna show you how broken I am.

But this time I’ll try,

I’ll try to say goodbye.

This little farewell makes me wanna die.

But I aint got any choice to make things go right.

As much as I love you, I need to say goodbye.

~Mamoroe

Merry Christmas

Christmas another season of celebration and happiness. But for me, it’s just another season that reminds me of being alone because of the emptiness that’s filling me. If I could only hold the hands of time, and let it just stop even for a while. Just for a while.

I’m here, all alone. Looking at the stars as my skin feels the cold breeze that the cold season brings. I’m imagining that you were beside me, hugging me tight, giving me a warm feeling and whispering sweet words to my ears. How I wish that I could see you smiling this Christmas, even you're with him. This is one of my saddest christmas ever. I wish there would be someone to spend the lonely christmas with. Someone who can make me smile even just for this Christmas day. Someone who can wipe every tears that will fall down from this eyes. This christmas, I hope you are happy, I’m pretty sure that he's the only guy who can make you smile this christmas. If god would give me a wish, I would wish to forget about you even just for this coming christmas day. So I can enjoy it without any longing for someone, without any ache or pain inside my heart. Even if my heart and mind don't want your memories to be thrown away inside their spaces, this feeling really hurts, forgetting all your thoughts is nothing but a death trap.

I think it's gonna be unfair if I'll greet you on this way, but still

MAY YOU HAVE A WONDERFUL CHRISTMAS.

~Mamoroe

sobrang saya ko kanina, kasi sinabi mo na mahal mo din pala ako.

Naiyak ako sa sobrang tuwa.Niyakap kita ng napaka higpit

at sinabi ko sayo na 'di kita iiwanan, kahit kailan...

"sorry sa lahat, kung nasaktan ka ng dahil sakin" sinabi mo.

Tumitig lang ako sa mga mata mo at hindi nagsalita

hinatak kita maglakad, hinawakan moh ung kamay ko

at hinigpitan ko din ung paghawak sayo.

Naglakad tayong dalawa, hindi ko maipaliwanang ang nararamdaman ko

napakasaya, na nakalimot ako.

Hindi ko mapigilang tgnan ang maganda mong mukha,

at nasabi ko sa sarili ko na, akala ko hndi mo ako matututunang mahalin.

Habang patuloy tayo sa paglalakadsy bigla mong binitiwan ang kamay ko.

Tumakbo ka papalayo, lumingon ka ng nakangiti sa akin.

Hinabol kita, ngunit hindi ko alam kung bakit 'di kita maabutan.

Hanggang sa nawala ka na lang sa paningin ko.

Wala ka na, kahit saan ako lumingon.

Nagising ako,mula sa mahimbing kong pagkakatulog.

Basa ang unan ko.Luha ang mga iyon, alam ko.

Umiyak ako dahil wala na akong magawa.

Tama nga sila, kabaligtaran ng panaginip ang realidad.

siguro hinabol dapat kita sa panaginip ko.

Baka sakaling abutan pa kita. Sana sa paglalakad mo papalayo hindi ka masugatan at madapa.

nandito lang ako pra alalalayan ka kung mangyari man ang bagay na 'yon.

kahit alm kong sa ibang tao ka pa din pupunnta

"akala ko totoo na"

~MaMORoE~

Pag-agos ng Panahon

Kung bibigyan lamang ako ng isang kahilingan, hihilingn ko na sana'y bumalik ang oras.

Nang sa ganoong paraan ay mabalikan ko ang mga pagkakataon naging msaya ako, kasama ka.

Balikan ang araw ng ako'y nagsimulang umibig sa'yo. marahil ay iibahin ko ang takbo ng buhay ko.

Hndi siguro ako ganito, kung makikita ko lang ang dating tayo.

nung panahon na masaya pa ako, nung panahon na di ko pa alam na iba ang gusto mo.

Heto na ako, pilit bumabangon. Hinaharap ang mapait na katotohanan na di ako ang mahal mo.

Wala man akong magawa, ito ang katotohanan, aking kapalaran at ito ang realidad.

Sana'y nananaginip lamang ako, sana ang lahat ng itoy isa lamang masamang panaginip.

Panaginip na pilit kong tatakasan.Sana'y dinggin ito, kahit sa panaginip ko lang ay maibalik ang mga oras na alam kong hindi na mababago.

marahil ay hihinto na ang mga luha sa pagpatak. Sahit sa isang saglit lang ibabalik ko ang oras,

khit sa maikling sandali lamang mawala ang sakit na dinaranas, kahit ilang saglit man lang, sanay makabalik sa nakaraan.

Makita kong muli, mga masasayang karansan, mga ala-alang nagbabalik sayo sa isipan ko, mga sandaling ako'y ngumiti ng dahil sa'yo.

sa pagagos ng panahon, alam kong makakatayong muli ako,

mahirap , ngunit ito na lang ang aking tanging magagawa.

Ang umasa sa himala, at maghintay sa wala.

Sana'y tumakbo ng mabilis ang panahon.

Nang sa ganoon ay mabilis din na mawala ang sakit dito sa puso ko.

"Sana nga, ang oras ay maibalik ko"

~MaMORoE

Empty

"tHe WoRsT ReGrEt wE CaN hAvE In OuR LiVeS Is NoT FoR ThE WrOnG ThInGs We DiD BuT FoR ThE RiGhT ThInGs We CoUlD HaVe DoNe But We NeVer Did"

Nagiisa ako

Isinulat ko ito
Habang ikaw ang nsa isipan 'ko
Nagmumuni-muni
Iniisip ang mga ngiti mo
Bakit ganito?
Ako'y naguguluhan
Isipan ko’y lito
Mga mata’y luhaan
sana makita mo ang lahat ng ito
Mga bagay na ginawa ko
At inalay ko pra sa’yo.
Ngunit di mo man mapansin
Masaya na rin ang puso
Kahit na ang magagawa ko lang
Ayang tingnan ka sa malayo
Sa kabila ng lahat
umaasa pa din ako.
Kahit ilang saglit lamang
Mahalin mo din ako
Ngunit palagay ko'y
Pangarap na lang ito
Pangarap na kahit minsa’y
hindi magkakatotoo..'

~MaMORoE~

Miss You More

There are so many reasons that I find to run to you.
Cos there's so little loving in my life, now I am way.
And thinking about it I want things back how they used to be.
There is no way round it, nothing good comes easily.
So much between us and we both know that it's wrong.
So I keep on waiting till I am back where I belong.

So here I am all by myself, thinking of you nobody else.
There is a feeling inside and as hard as I try, it just won't go away.
Are you finding it hard it all on your own?
Having to face each night alone.
Knowing that you are the one with the love that I need
And I miss you more each day.

So many feelings emotions running away with me
Cos it's you I believe in and I love this one so deep
So much between us and we both know that it's wrong
Now I keep on waiting till I am back where I belong
Back where I belong.

So here I am all by myself, thinking of you nobody else.
There is a feeling inside and as hard as I try, it just won't go away.
Are you finding it hard it all on your own?
Having to face each night alone.
Knowing that you are the one with the love that I need
And I miss you more each day.

So I keep on waiting till I am back where I belong
Back where I belong

So here I am all by myself, thinking of you nobody else.
There is a feeling inside and as hard as I try, it just won't go away.
Are you finding it hard it all on your own?
Having to face each night alone.
Knowing that you are the one with the love that I need
And I miss you more each day.

Malalim na Ang Gabi

Heto na namn ako

Nagmumukmok sa isang sulok
Nag-iisa at ang araw ay sdyang npakalungkot
Bakit? Dahil naalala ko siya
Naalala ko ulit ang maganda niyang mukha
Ang matatamis niyang ngiti
Magandang niyang mata at nangungusap n labi
Tanging ang mga haligi lang ng kuwartong ito
ang nakakaalam ng lahat ng problema ko.
Tanging unan ko lang ang may alam
na pumapatak ang luha ko tuwing gabi
na humuhinto lng kapag ang mata ko'y
pagod na sa paghikbi,
Ang tahimik na gabi ang nagpapaalala sakin,
sa iyo,.
Ang katahimikan nito ang bumabsag ng
kasiyahan sa puso ko.,
Sa ngayon siguro'y mahimbng ka nang natutulog
At kahit sa panaginip mo'y
alam ko na ang damdamin mo sakin
ay di mahuhulog


~MaMORoE~

One Last Time

Just read it from someone's blog. A sad yet a very inspiring story.


once in my life i found the person i considered my soulmate.and that's you. i told myself, that i would do anything,love you and never gonna hurt you.you were my bestfriend, my love, my everything...we were happy.. til one day, you came to me and said,"im sick, im afraid i can't stay with you any longer..."i didn't believe you at first,but when i saw those tears fall down your cheeks,it spells out the truth about how you really feel inside...you were deeply hurt, yah, i know... i was hurt too...i brought you to the hospital,despite you telling me its useless...I asked the doctor about your condition,he can't barely look straight into my eyes,and he said "it was too late..."And my life has changed at that very moment...All of the sudden i found myself at the chapel,with my head down, on bended knees, yelling... asking why???I knew it, but i just can't accept it...I was down, completely. but i had to be strong for you...at you worst...i was loving you...Until the day has come for us to say goodbye...those six long years we've shared was gone in a just a second...if only I knew that was the last time,I should have held you and never let go.the kiss, whisper, and embrace... it was the last,you never hugged me that way before...i can feel it, your arms gently falls down from my back...i know you're gone...we always thought our love was enough for us to last...and i thought my love was enough to make you happy...but its not... it was a sad ending, it's god's will...I know you're happy now wherever you are...And here i am, hurting.... broken....trying to start over once again...i know i can't get you back..and i won't be seeing you again...Im sorry if you see my life falling apartMy heart is shattered down the floorWith each piece I pick up -one by one, piece by piece,its more than a year nowthis has been the longest year of my life,the most painful time i ever had...i tried to live my life, without you in it...but the sadness of the nightbrings back the days we had,the time you let go of my hand,the moment i surrendered you...silence reminds me of all the sorrow,the pain, and my hopelessness...Help me! Heal me!let me suffer in silence 'til i get over you...and slowly, i can let you go... and i, i will be ME again...i can still feel you... i am still loving you silently,But i will be keeping my promise,i will move on... but i will never forget you...Hear me say this, One last time

..."i have found the essence of my life,i have discovered Myself and a world
that's beautiful,..Because of you..."My love, my misery,I'll let go of you
now,its time to set myself free

..i know it'll be hard..coz this love.....my love.....this is all i have...

from wyteheart

its the reason

once in my life, i met a person whom i fell inlove with.
i told myself that i would never let her go
i promise that i will nver hurt her
my mind revolves only her on that days
the days when i was so inlove with her
til one day,i realize that i have the guts to tell to you
what i feel.
but things started to went wrong,
its too late for me and my feelings
she dont have feelings for me
and i feel so sick about that
she told me that somebody took her heart
my heart started to break on that moment
my tears began to flow down from my eyes
and i dont know what to do
now im starting to pick all of the broken
pieces of my heart one by one,
im puutung them alltogehther
how can is start over again???
i know that i have to forget about her
i know i need to let go and start things
allover again..
and be thankful that somehow, i met a person like you
a person who made my life so meaningful
i wanna thnk her for that
its been a year since then, and i think this is the
longest and saddest year of my life
were good friends, but whenever i saw them with his guy together
i cant help my feelings to cry
now i need to heal myself
to start a new life, coz i know she will never be mine
and this....
this is all i have..
i will never ever forget you

~MaMORoE~