Lost in Goodbyes

IT’S NOT ABOUT HOW YOU MADE ME CRY. IT’S ABOUT HOW YOU'VE CHANGED MY LIFE. I REALLY DON'T CARE IF IT DID'NT LAST. COZ I KNOW THERE'S A REASON BEHIND EVERY WHY?

"I HAVE FOUND THE TRUE ESSENCE OF LIFE, A LIFE THAT IS SO MEANINGFUL BECAUSE OF YOU.THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING, I KNOW IT HURT ME A LOT, I KNOW IT MADE ME CRY FOR A LONG TIME. BUT I FINALLY REALIZED THAT SOMETIMES I NEED TO FREE THINGS TO BE ABLE TO SEE D OTHER SIDE OF LIFE.NOW IT’S ALL GONE.MY SOUL HAVE FINALLY RUNAWAY FROM TEARS. MY HEART FINALLY FOUND THE COURAGE TO TELL THE WHOLE WORLD THAT IM NOW OVER YOU. I KNOW SOMEDAY EVERYTHING WILL FIND IT’S WAY. EVERY SINGLE THING WILL FINALLY BE OKAY.

THIS SOUL IS FINALLY OVER YOU. BUT GIVE ME ONE LAST CHANCE TO SAY MY FAREWELL. COZ THIS SIMPLE GOODBYE IS MY SIMPLE WAY OF TELLING "THANK YOU".ALL OF THESE ARE FOR YOU.

THIS MAY BE THE END OF EVERYTHING

EVERY TEAR FROM MY EYES ARE DRYING

PAIN FINALLY MEETS THE END

TIME HAS COME FOR ME TO LET MY HEART MENDILL BE OFF THE OTHER WAYSO I CAN FREE MY SELFI'LL BE WAITING FOR ANOTHER CHANCEWAITING FOR SOMEONE WHO WILL SHARE HER DAYSI SAW THE PAST WAVING GOODBYESIVE SEEN MYSELF FREE.,SMILING AT SOMETIMES.,

NOW I HAVE NO REASONS TO STAY AND WAIT

I'LL NOW LEAVE EVERYTHINGTO THE HANDS OF FATE.,SOMEDAY I'LL BE BACK WITH SMILESSMILES THAT SOMEHOW FADED BY TIME.,THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHINGIT LEADS ME TO THE ENDTO THE END OF EMPTINESS

TO THE END OF BEING BROKEN.

THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING, FOR THE COURAG, FOR THE TIME, THANK YOU FOR GIVING ME, A REASON FOR A SMILE.

~MaMORoE~

Patawad

malinaw pa sa isip ko ang nangyari a gabing iyon. isang napaka espesyal na gabi, espesyal para sa mga tao na umiibig at hindi sa tulad ko. Pinilit ko na lang na pagmasdan ka sa malayo, habang nakikita 'kong masaya ka na kasama siya. Habang patuloy sa pagtugtog ang musika, patuloy din ang mga mata ko, sa pagpigil ng mga luha.

Salamat at nagkaroon ako ng pagkakataong makausap at makasama ka. Kahit sa ilang saglit lamang, msabi ko ang nais bigkasin, mga salitang nakakubli sa kabila ng mga msasayang ngiti.

"PATAWAD" ang sinambit ng aking mga labi. Hndi ko man nasabi ang dahilan, dahil alam kong mas mabuti kun itatago ko na lamang, hindi ko mapigilang tignan ang mganda mong mukha sa mga oras na iyon., napakasarap pakinggan ng matamis mong boses. Hiniling ko na sana'y huminto ang oras ng mga panahong 'yon, upang mas matagal kitang makasama.

Ang mga hiram na sandali ay tuluyan ng nawala. Binitwan ko ang iyong kamay at iniwan muli sakanya. Marahil ay dito ko nalang sasabihin kung ano ang dahilan ng mga salitang binigkas ko sa mga oras na 'yon.

PATAWAD sa lahat ng nagawa ko. Patawad dahil hanggang ngayon ikaw parin ang mahal ko, patwad kung ikaw parin ang nsa puso ko.

~MaMORoE~

Too Far From Your Smile

I'm now walking away from those pretty smiles
Stepping out my feet, behind those glittering eyes
Her sweet and me llowish voice
This broken heart is screaming his goodbyes

I talk to the stars every night
Pretendin' it’s you. suddenly I realize
they're all similar to you
too far to reply to whatever I'm saying
can't hear me whenever I’m talking

Its always been a mystery
why tears fall because of pain
but now I've got the answer
they're also like heaven and rain

The past remains here with me
and I’m trying my best to get out from it
like what i said, "soon I’ll be okay"
That’s a promise, I will never be the same

This may be the ending
Of this very sad story
But I'm thankful about it
‘Coz you are the one
Who brought colors to its pictures

Someday, someone will fix things out
Someone will heal my broken heart
Smile will shine again on my face
Somehow, time will erase the pain

I’m now far from your pretty smile
Miles and miles away pain will fade in time
I know the sun of happiness will shine again
It will clear all of the sadness
To where the memories of the past are written

~MaMORoE~

Sad Thoughts Of Saying Goodbye

Sometimes, things went better if you'll just let them go, you need to accept the fact that even you want them to stay, they just can’t. Because some people were not meant to be in your life, no matter how you want them to be. Things will go on the right time at the right place, if not now, just wait and you will see. Life has its own wonderful way of making things better, if pain starts to go down, then just be strong to let go. Everything happens for its own reason.

I wrote all of these knowing that this will worth nothing to you. Things wouldn't change by this stupid writings I have made. But still, all of these are for you. Your name is behind every word I have written in this. Each of its letters spells your memory out.

Now, I’m here, finding out words to say goodbye. Leaving those memories that was once gave me a smile. I know I can let you go. I can still find a right person who will care for me the way I have loved you.

Time will come and I will finish picking up the broken pieces of my heart that you have left inside me. Tears will no longer fall from my eyes. I know I made a right decision, to give you up. Promise me you'll love him with all of your heart. Make him smile, like the way you did to me.

I will now walk on a different path. But if someday our roads meet again, you'll see a better me. You'll see a smile glowing in my face. Thank you for making me happy even just for a while. I promise, I will be happy, I will smile at the right time.

~MaMORoE~

Love is Leaving

Thank you for all those times you've cared. For all of those memories we once shared. I know your happy right now with him and me? I’m lifting this broken heart of mine. Away from what yesterday had made it cry. I want this heart to be free to start a new life. A life with joy and happiness. I want to seek for someone whose willing to wipe all of my tears who’s gonna be around for me forever. Let me escape from all of those aches and pain. I know I can make it, Even if I’m not with you. This is my silent way of telling you I love you. I will now look for my own happiness. But let me tell you my sweet goodbyes.

You've made me strong, from all those pains. I know you can see me happy, smiling at some ways. This broken soul is starting to mend. But maybe someday , if the feelings comes again.I’m not gonna love, what I have done the same way again. I will now break the pain that once broke my heart and I know I can ease the heartaches.

.

All I want to say is goodbye. I’m telling you these words because now I know.

Now I’m never gonna cry.

As I walk alone, I will leave your memories behind

I know I can make it

Even without your smile

I want you to be happy

For the rest of your life

Don’t want to see

A single tear from your eyes

It’s been so long since this heart starts to break

Now I know it’s the right time to let it mend

I’m now through with love

I’m now through with pain

And I don’t wanna feel the same way again

This heart needs to leave you

And I know he can

‘Coz this bleeding heart

Ss so tired of being broken

Now I’m erasing all those memories

You’ve written across my heart

Leaving all those empty spaces

That once fell apart

Let me say I love you

But it also means goodbye

Hear me say these words again

Just one last time

You'll always be a part of my memories

~MaMORoE~

A Vision Of Insanity

I have given up all of my strength

But still, I’m not the one for you

Yeah I want you to be happy

Even if the reason is not me

I'm letting you go now

Coz I know It’s the right thing to do

I've let the pain tear my heart apart

Done it all coz of my love for you

Now, all I can do is to stare at you from a distance

Holding back my tears

Coz I don’t want you to see it falling

All I want you to see is that I'm smiling

This is the hardest part of giving you up

I know I’m letting you go and I’ll leave this heart empty

You won’t really care for me after all

With all of this heartaches

Bleeding inside my soul

It’s time to set myself free

For tears to start fading

I know someday, somehow

This heart can start moving on

I’m erasing the memories

You've written across my heart

I’m down, but I keep on standing

I’m in pain but I just keep fighting

I can fight this feeling and I’m sure about that

And I want you to see

How strong to let go I was

I’m now turning the pages

The chapters of your memories
I’m nearly finish reading

This really sad story

Now I learned

Not every story has its own happy ending

But whatever the ending was

I know I’ll learn a lot from it

I’M LETTING GO OF YOU NOW.

~MaMORoE~

Sa Gitna ng Pagiisa

Sa likod ng mga luha
Nakatago ang tunay kong ndarama
Di mo man makita., di man marinig
Itong puso ko'y. ikaw padin ang pinipintig
Heto ako at nagiisa
Pilit nilalabanan., lungkot na nadarama
Habang nandito at umaasa
Na masabi mo ang mga salitang
"mahal din kita"
Pagod na ang puso ko
Sa pagsambit ng pangalan mo
Hindi mo rin namn naririnig
Kahit ano pa ang gawin ko
Dapat nga ba kitang layuan?
Iwan at kalimutan?
Alam kong mahirap ito
Ngunit dapat na kitang hayaan
Hindi ko na kaya pa
Pagod na ako sa pagluha
Dapat ko ng ihakbang papalayo
Itong aking mga paa..'
Alam kong mahirap..'
Alam kong masakit,,.'
Ngunit dapat kong tanggapin
Na di kita pagaari
Mahal kita
Ngunit mahal mo siya
Ano pang magagawa ko
Wala narin nmn diba?
Isang bagay n lamng
Ang gusto kong malaman mo
Ayoko na makitang
May luha sa mga mata moh
Hanggang dito na lamang siguro
Ang laban ng pag-ibig ko

~MaMORoE~

Letters From My Past

Lately this morning, I was fixing some things on my room. Then Ii accidentally saw my old note book. My old school notebook. Then I remember that it was the notebook that she used to borrow from me. I turn the pages until I reached the last leaf. As I turned at the last page
I saw the writings that you have made on it. You wrote my nickname MBON, you also write my full name twice. I also saw some erased writings on it. I knew you wrote that too. It was also my name if I'm not mistaken. My name with a sort of four letter word at the end that I can’t read clearly.

Then I stopped for a little while, for a tear to fell from my eyes and it landed on the pages of that notebook.
That writings really remind me of how good we used to be before. Of how you once cared for me. But now it’s all gone. I need to accept the fact that you’re only a memory now. A memory that brings joy and tears to my eyes.

After fixing my room, it took the notebook to our backyard. I burned it all the way through. Until it became ashes, ashes full of memories. How I wish that m feelings for you were also burned as the papers do. This time I need to fix things out. I need to heal this broken heart. The heart that used to love a girl that never loved him back..


~MaMORoE~

Hear Me Out

Loving someone means taking a great risk.
Coz you can’t be sure that they can give you back

The love you have shown on them.

Always remember these thoughts.

"Some people are not meant to be in your life
no matter how you want them to be"

I’d like tell you I love you.
But all I can do is stay and cry in silence.
Suddenly I started to realize that my heart is suffering from dumbness.
I’m losing all the strength to move on and to forget.
Because I know it would be better
if I'll just walk away without any single word.
This heart is really torn apart and I can’t fight this feeling.
I’m holding on to nothing.
I don’t want you to see,
how this stupid heart starts breaking into pieces.
Sorry if I had love you,
I know you won’t feel the same way too
now it’s time to move on
its time to step behind,
and leave all those empty spaces
let this feeling from me unwind.
But before I go, I want you to remember that,

"For every tear that falls from your eyes,

Two falls from mine"

~MaMORoE~

Goodbyes

I know right from the start that you don't like me.
But being pretty close to you is enough for me.

If you can’t be mine,
can you please stay even just for a while?
It doesn't mean that I'm smiling,
my heart is not crying.
Its not because you can see me fighting
inside me I'm not dying.
For loving you is like a seeking star,
it’s impossible to reach you coz your too far.
But if you really are for me,
I know that love will find a way, no matter how it will be .
It was so hard to think that you will never be mine.
But it’s more painful to realize
that I knew it right from the start.
If you would give me a chance,
I‘ll tell the whole world how much I love you.
While knowing how loud I shout.
It’s just a crazy thing for you.
Just like what others tell
"saying I love you is also saying goodbye"
Knowing how hard I try,

This pain will never ever die.

Is it time to let go? Is it time to say my goodbyes?

Or is it the time for me, to let you hear how my heart cry?

I’m not letting you see tears fall again.

I’m not gonna show you how broken I am.

But this time I’ll try,

I’ll try to say goodbye.

This little farewell makes me wanna die.

But I aint got any choice to make things go right.

As much as I love you, I need to say goodbye.

~Mamoroe

Merry Christmas

Christmas another season of celebration and happiness. But for me, it’s just another season that reminds me of being alone because of the emptiness that’s filling me. If I could only hold the hands of time, and let it just stop even for a while. Just for a while.

I’m here, all alone. Looking at the stars as my skin feels the cold breeze that the cold season brings. I’m imagining that you were beside me, hugging me tight, giving me a warm feeling and whispering sweet words to my ears. How I wish that I could see you smiling this Christmas, even you're with him. This is one of my saddest christmas ever. I wish there would be someone to spend the lonely christmas with. Someone who can make me smile even just for this Christmas day. Someone who can wipe every tears that will fall down from this eyes. This christmas, I hope you are happy, I’m pretty sure that he's the only guy who can make you smile this christmas. If god would give me a wish, I would wish to forget about you even just for this coming christmas day. So I can enjoy it without any longing for someone, without any ache or pain inside my heart. Even if my heart and mind don't want your memories to be thrown away inside their spaces, this feeling really hurts, forgetting all your thoughts is nothing but a death trap.

I think it's gonna be unfair if I'll greet you on this way, but still

MAY YOU HAVE A WONDERFUL CHRISTMAS.

~Mamoroe

sobrang saya ko kanina, kasi sinabi mo na mahal mo din pala ako.

Naiyak ako sa sobrang tuwa.Niyakap kita ng napaka higpit

at sinabi ko sayo na 'di kita iiwanan, kahit kailan...

"sorry sa lahat, kung nasaktan ka ng dahil sakin" sinabi mo.

Tumitig lang ako sa mga mata mo at hindi nagsalita

hinatak kita maglakad, hinawakan moh ung kamay ko

at hinigpitan ko din ung paghawak sayo.

Naglakad tayong dalawa, hindi ko maipaliwanang ang nararamdaman ko

napakasaya, na nakalimot ako.

Hindi ko mapigilang tgnan ang maganda mong mukha,

at nasabi ko sa sarili ko na, akala ko hndi mo ako matututunang mahalin.

Habang patuloy tayo sa paglalakadsy bigla mong binitiwan ang kamay ko.

Tumakbo ka papalayo, lumingon ka ng nakangiti sa akin.

Hinabol kita, ngunit hindi ko alam kung bakit 'di kita maabutan.

Hanggang sa nawala ka na lang sa paningin ko.

Wala ka na, kahit saan ako lumingon.

Nagising ako,mula sa mahimbing kong pagkakatulog.

Basa ang unan ko.Luha ang mga iyon, alam ko.

Umiyak ako dahil wala na akong magawa.

Tama nga sila, kabaligtaran ng panaginip ang realidad.

siguro hinabol dapat kita sa panaginip ko.

Baka sakaling abutan pa kita. Sana sa paglalakad mo papalayo hindi ka masugatan at madapa.

nandito lang ako pra alalalayan ka kung mangyari man ang bagay na 'yon.

kahit alm kong sa ibang tao ka pa din pupunnta

"akala ko totoo na"

~MaMORoE~

Pag-agos ng Panahon

Kung bibigyan lamang ako ng isang kahilingan, hihilingn ko na sana'y bumalik ang oras.

Nang sa ganoong paraan ay mabalikan ko ang mga pagkakataon naging msaya ako, kasama ka.

Balikan ang araw ng ako'y nagsimulang umibig sa'yo. marahil ay iibahin ko ang takbo ng buhay ko.

Hndi siguro ako ganito, kung makikita ko lang ang dating tayo.

nung panahon na masaya pa ako, nung panahon na di ko pa alam na iba ang gusto mo.

Heto na ako, pilit bumabangon. Hinaharap ang mapait na katotohanan na di ako ang mahal mo.

Wala man akong magawa, ito ang katotohanan, aking kapalaran at ito ang realidad.

Sana'y nananaginip lamang ako, sana ang lahat ng itoy isa lamang masamang panaginip.

Panaginip na pilit kong tatakasan.Sana'y dinggin ito, kahit sa panaginip ko lang ay maibalik ang mga oras na alam kong hindi na mababago.

marahil ay hihinto na ang mga luha sa pagpatak. Sahit sa isang saglit lang ibabalik ko ang oras,

khit sa maikling sandali lamang mawala ang sakit na dinaranas, kahit ilang saglit man lang, sanay makabalik sa nakaraan.

Makita kong muli, mga masasayang karansan, mga ala-alang nagbabalik sayo sa isipan ko, mga sandaling ako'y ngumiti ng dahil sa'yo.

sa pagagos ng panahon, alam kong makakatayong muli ako,

mahirap , ngunit ito na lang ang aking tanging magagawa.

Ang umasa sa himala, at maghintay sa wala.

Sana'y tumakbo ng mabilis ang panahon.

Nang sa ganoon ay mabilis din na mawala ang sakit dito sa puso ko.

"Sana nga, ang oras ay maibalik ko"

~MaMORoE

Empty

"tHe WoRsT ReGrEt wE CaN hAvE In OuR LiVeS Is NoT FoR ThE WrOnG ThInGs We DiD BuT FoR ThE RiGhT ThInGs We CoUlD HaVe DoNe But We NeVer Did"

Nagiisa ako

Isinulat ko ito
Habang ikaw ang nsa isipan 'ko
Nagmumuni-muni
Iniisip ang mga ngiti mo
Bakit ganito?
Ako'y naguguluhan
Isipan ko’y lito
Mga mata’y luhaan
sana makita mo ang lahat ng ito
Mga bagay na ginawa ko
At inalay ko pra sa’yo.
Ngunit di mo man mapansin
Masaya na rin ang puso
Kahit na ang magagawa ko lang
Ayang tingnan ka sa malayo
Sa kabila ng lahat
umaasa pa din ako.
Kahit ilang saglit lamang
Mahalin mo din ako
Ngunit palagay ko'y
Pangarap na lang ito
Pangarap na kahit minsa’y
hindi magkakatotoo..'

~MaMORoE~